Friday, January 16, 2009

an aside

i've really been meaning to actually write a blog for a while now, but i just haven't found the right motivation to. mostly, i just don't know what to write about these days. i feel like my life has become this weird mixture of bore and busy, and this leaves me thinking that i either have nothing to write about or too much. but, perhaps i'll take some advice from one of my favorite movies, stranger than fiction and just write:

kay: came to me.

penny: how?

kay: well, penny, like anything worth writing, it came inexplicably and without method.


for my birthday, matt got me
 on dvd, which i have wanted for ages now. i have it on vhs, but that's of no worth anymore as it requires one of those ancient and once widely used tape machines.

speaking of, napoleon dynamite has been on cable a lot lately, and in the d-qwan's dance grooves scene, napoleon puts the tape into an old-school top-loading vhs machine. that is one of the many scenes that fills me with nostalgia, as we once had a top loader.

another favorite scene from napoleon dynamite is summer's happy hands skit. i swear i (almost) had that exact same dance costume when i was like 7. it was also bright blue and covered in sequins. it's amazing how fashion changes and reinvents itself year after year, decade after decade, but dance wear has seemed to be at a stand still since 1982. seriously, the 80s should never (a) endure or (b) come back. (i'm talking to you, miss-i-was-born-in-the-90s who thinks it's "cool and "hip" to wear ruffled skirts with footless tights. have you ever seen teen witch?! watch and learn.) 

why is it that the dance world hasn't evolved? when i decide to put my future daughter in dance classes to relive my childhood through her and push her to be the "best g-d dancer in the american ballet academy", will she be wearing the same tacky, sequin covered, unflattering and dated dance wear?

and while i totally plan to sign my future children up for dance or sports or whatever's "in" so that they can building their self-esteem, blah blah blah, i don't want to be one of those parents living their long lost dreams through their kids. but i do want them to try things and be active, even if they ended up being horrible at it. i played softball for 1 year, and i think i hit the ball maybe twice. hand-eye coordination was never my thing. but it was the experience that mattered.

when matt & i were engaged, one of the bluegrass band he played with did a show at an elementary school carnival, and while he was playing, i drifted off to the sidelines to people-watch where i glimpsed our future child. this little boy was skinny, wore glasses, and had the balloon-shape-maker create a rocket/jet pack he wore like a backpack. this kid was so stinking excited, and seemed so proud of his uber-geek balloon creation amongst all the other children who had the oh so popular swords or dogs. i was complete amused by this little kid, and then had the thought that this would be how our children would turn out. i really don't think we're the types to breed cheerleaders and jocks. we'll have a little army of egons and tina feys, both brilliant and awkward.

and did anyone see "30 rock" last week? the story line between liz lemon and the dwarf from elf was brilliant! it included the best come back ever: "you came out wrong!" another one of my favorite biting insults is from act 4, scence 3 of hamlet. after he's killed polonius, and has been brought before king claudius, the following exchange occurs:

claudius: where is polonius?

hamlet: in heaven; send hither to see him: if your messenger find him not there, seek him i' the other place yourself.

i fell in love with hamlet when i first read it in my senior english class. i read it over and over until the paperback was falling apart. that might have been my first love affair. and it was then that i first viewed kenneth branagh's hamlet
 in all it's brilliance. not only did my interpretations of hamlet match his, but the movie is amazingly cast and beautifully and artfully shot. there are a few scenes in the movie that are continuous shots lasting 5 minutes or so, the camera constantly moving. it's exceptional.

after many years, they finally released hamlet on dvd a year ago last august. and now i own it, thanks to matt. and we will watch it (perhaps in parts) this weekend.

full circle complete. and there you have it. a blog, created "inexplicably and without method". 


  1. The Egon reference is classic - and probably more appropriate than you'll ever realize. How much has Matt told you about his Ghostbusters phase?!

  2. It's really the only way to post. Just let it flow, yo. I miss your face.

  3. 'Inexplicably and without method' is very entertaining!

    I feel I must say that it's hard to not live through your kids. It's just a built-in instinct to give your child everything that you wanted (piano/dance lessons, beautiful play kitchens...etc.) and then enjoy it more than said child.

  4. erin: yes, i do know about matt's ghostbuster's phase! it is oh so fitting.

    leah: i miss your face, too!

    ruth: that beautiful play kitchen is so awesome! shoot, even i am living through your kids with that. i would so play for hours with that thing.

  5. I like Mel Gibson's Hamlet too, but Branagh is our time's preeminent Shakespeare actor, and his is really great. I think I like his Much Ado About nothing with Emma Thompson better though.

  6. Toddlers and Tiaras. The ultimate sad sad tale of fat, ugly mothers trying to live their dreams through their sad, snobby little girls.
    My leotard was like that too. Only orange.