Tuesday, December 27, 2005

post-christmas malaise

i awoke yesterday morning in a malaise...yes, a malaise. read on, dear reader.

unfortunately, i'm not a kid anymore (well, at least not in literal form), so the excitement of going to bed early on christmas eve, leaving cookies and milk out for santa, awaking christmas morning to discover that santa had come and left ALL these presents under our christmas tree, and then ripping open my presents with such excitement and anticipation is gone.

now, i'm on the cusp of being 23, i stay up late on christmas eve wrapping presents and arranging them nicely under the tree, i eat the cookies but, alas, not the milk left for "santa", the little bro turtle has to drag me out of bed christmas morning at 7am to open presents because santa, a.k.a, my parents & me, had indeed come, and i then open the few presents my mom had managed to get for me without me knowing and/or picking out.

so, in conclusion, that christmas excitement that i felt as a child in anticipation of what barbie i would be getting this year is totally gone. so, sunday was spent sleeping and eating all day, and the week proceeding christmas, which was usually spent with so much excitement that i was bursting at the seams by christmas, visiting santa at the mall, etc, was spent working at borders trying to find some obscure book for somebody's mom they heard about once somewhere. the upside to that was that christmas shoppers seemed less biting and demanding this year, and just generally worn out, but kind and jolly. unless you count that shopper who called the store at 8am on christmas eve wondering if we had any x-boxes.

so yesterday was spent attempting to recover from all that had transpired the week before, and food, the sleep, and all the time spent with the family (love them all! really do, but i reached my breaking point waaaay early this year with a few family members), which has now left me in a malaise. tired, headachey, and just generally blah-feeling. blah.

a side-note: it's currently 72 degrees here. oh blessed texas! how i missed your not-cold weather!

Saturday, December 17, 2005


the fall 2005 semester has died.

and although it had its ups and downs, joys and heartaches, it lived a full 3 1/2 month life and passed on december 16th.
it taught me things about the human body i'm not sure i wanted to know, like how urine is made. it gave me many a cadaver and assorted specimens to learn from. oh how i enjoyed that class.
it taught me all about the evils of capitalism, nationalism, pharmaceutical companies, and western health/prevention programs in africa. and i finally got to read guns, germs, and steel.
it buried me in loads of papers, research projects on marine shells from jordan, a few all-nighters, and a not-so-great disposition towards love.
it showered me with great friends, lots of chocolate, great spiritual awakenings, and a published paper.
it was good to me, it was horrible to me.
it will be somewhat missed, but mostly forgotten.

the fall 2005 semester is survived by 8 new books on my bookshelf, $75 i got for my anatomy textbook, about 5 less pounds, pure, unadulterated apathy, a new affinity for spinach wrap sandwiches from the cougar eat, and an overall giddiness that THIS SEMESTER HAS DIED!

may it rest in peace.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

where do people find these things?

i had no idea mr. 't' was so pro-mothers.

"mother - there is no other, like mother - so treat her right!"

Monday, December 05, 2005

i'm cold and sick and it's all your fault

dear winter,

i know you think you're pretty and all, but you also suck. i don't care what your mom (presumably mother nature) says...cut it out! contrary to popular belief, i like having feeling in my hands, nose, ears, and cheeks. sure i'm a fan of winter fashion, but here's where you'd be misguided.
I HATE THE COLD!! and you can't blame this one on me! sure i moved here from texas, where its currently 70 degrees, to spent the winter months in utah, your stomping grounds, but you knew i was coming! you could have stopped. i guess you thought i would like it, seeing as "winter" in texas translates to what is known as "fall" here with the occasionally snow/ice show you like to put on for kicks, but doesn't result in anything except for everything, from schools to businesses to the space program, being shut down for fear this little know white substance that you're ever so fond of here in utah.
but no, you were wrong. soooo very wrong. walking to school in 20 degree weather isn't fun. neither is the fact that my lungs hurt right now from breathing in your cold air.
you make me sick. literally. *cough*hack*whine*zzzzzzzz* sure, blame ritz and her filthy kids for giving me the flu, but it all goes back to you, my friend. so if i die, it's your conscious that will be racked with guilt. and if i fail this semester due to the fact that i can't do anything but sleep and whine right now, it's all on your head.

in conclusion, i hate you.


Thursday, December 01, 2005

World AIDS Day

is today. do your part.

Support World AIDS Day
UPDATE: go here, listen and read the story of Nkosi Johnson, and be touched and inspired.
"do all you can in the time you have with what you have in the place you are."